problems again

im sooo Hungry!!!
i want to make mushroom soup...wait ar!!

ok..
so, my numerous problem includes this one...LAZINESS!!!

Being the last child in the family, I am born to be lazy...
as a student, i ain't supposed to do so...

i can't study after going back from school...
hunger stops all my activity...
i am lazy..

i am so not an action person..
i am home-bounded...

i envy the girlfriends who are very active and gets involved in so many extra curricular activities...
i wish to start new life and start off first by jogging every evening..
but then, only now it starts raining every evening... plus, when i get the chance, i am shy to do it, even basketball or w/e..my only active girlfriend is playing futsal. i can't play it, not in public..
another obstacle is that i always have to cover my chest every time i jog...sometimes it hurts as they move along..
plus, my bestest friends here are all slim and don't need the exercise, so, i lack supports...

i also want to be involved in NGO activities.like my friend, she is always joining sth, evan my niece is in Rakan Muda...I guess maybe i got out too much,so i just lost the keen of going out...i'm becoming more and more less social and home-bounded since i was in relationship with this great guy...

^_^ but, i am happy because tomorrow, i am going to the Aussie Education Fair in KLCC...it's been like forever since i'd gone out on such activities. so, i am so not surprised if tomorrow i wake up and don't feel like going...

THAT'S MY PROBLEM!!! I NEVER HAVE EFFORT TO PUT MY ALL INTO ANYTHING AT ALL IN THIS WORLD, NOR CAN I STAND ON MY OWN TWO FEET TO DO THINGS WITHOUT NEEDING SOMEONE TO BACK ME UP. I DON'T HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO DO ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD, I WOULD RATHER LIE DOWN AND SLEEP,WATCHING tv, LISTENING TO NOISES INSTEAD OF GOING AROUND THE PLACE, EXPLORING IT, LEARNING STH.I ONLY WANT TO EAT,REST,ENJOY THE CONDITION. I HAVE REALLY INTERNALIZE PROCRASTINATION,LAZINESS,STUPIDITY,DISCOURAGEMENT,DEPENDENCE IN ME!!!

so, my goal now is to slowly start making my own move on my two feet!