my first day of holiday, on my way back home by the train, i as on a date with my boyfriend..it was so much fun, i had never felt so close to him, he didn't doubt me at all on that day..

that was the happiest day...i even brought together my plant and it did get me some attention..hehe

u see, after i got my mental ready and asked him for a break up, i was very2 prepared to start flirting again and making some new boy friends.. cuz i wasn't really allowed to befriend boys..no, not here..

its kind of a pain because each day we talk about 4 to 5 times daily..if he was working..if he wasn't, maybe we couldn't even stop..I couldn't even stop talking, or he would think that i don't love him..and each time we chat, he would definitely, all these three years together never forget to say how much he loves me and didn't want me to leave him and can't live without me..drastic, i know..but you can't take him for granted..he does what he says..so, back to the main story...

each day every time we chat, i would have to tell him that I love him even when i don't really feel like it, and tell him that i would never leave him when i know i would.. and I am not the type of person who feels good after telling a lie, esp to the one who rely and 'trusts' me most...

but after i asked for the break up, and he got back to me and i accepted him,(i didn't tell him the real reason for breaking up was my love wasn't that strong anymore)..i started to really love him and even got butterflies in my stomach when we dated again, just like good old times..I AM SO DAMN HAPPY THAT I WAS ABLE TO LOVE HIM AGAIN, JUST LIKE GOOD OLD TIMES. =)